how many times in a day do you catch yourself wandering in your mind?
obvious
every time you go to the kitchen or somewhere else and once you’ve crossed the threshold, you have no idea what you came there for…
and when you blame it on distraction, fatigue or worse, age
pernicious
what goes on in your head when you are busy with a mechanical task (driving your car, answering texts), a routine task (emptying the dishwasher, brushing your teeth) or a monotonous task (knitting, mowing the lawn)
even better: when you pretend to make it a practice of attention and mindfulness
insidious
what creeps up on you on nights when sleep eludes you, anxiety grips you by the throat and squeezes your heart, thoughts in loops and volutes of all kinds including the conviction that waking up and the day that follows will be difficult
the bonus: the ambivalent desire to stop this game and fall asleep right away and solve the problems at hand
trivialised
the inner radio that broadcasts 24/7 thoughts about everything and nothing (especially nothing), fed by the day’s incidents, news, information, rumours, chatter (the loudest are with yourself) …
the best part: this mental matter is essentially copy-pasted, thoughts are received and reproduced, without elaboration
radical
when you anticipate the worst case scenario with all its details and consequences up to the fifth generation
and of course it can happen, even if it is unlikely
plated
when what you affirm (everything is fine, the family is fine, you do what you like, …) has trouble covering another underlying discourse, perhaps a little less glorious
and you try to believe it!
validated
the well-made head, which has been trained and formed, so that it is able to create and elaborate intelligent thoughts in your favourite fields
envied by those who have not received this formatting, it’s not really enviable, really
valued
when you nourish the intention or call the vibration to manifest peace, love, abundance etc. and the affirmations and formulas to achieve this end
the problem is that the seeded ground cannot sustain the frequency
zen
when you confuse (really?) apathy, sleepiness or depression with inner emptiness
…
well I’ll stop here, the list is already long
all this to say that
this mental hubbub (coherent, organised, intelligent or not) is in reality a scramble, hence the wandering
the incessant activity in your head, however brilliant and joyful, prevents you from accessing the only resource that matters to you, your Self
your head is a big transparent bowl
a container that can be filled or remain empty
it can receive information that makes sense
if nothing hinders its resonance
when it is empty, then!
your head is not made to think
it is programmed to keep you in illusion and suffering, that’s a fact. you can’t do anything about it, we can’t do anything about it, we are all made like rats, no one escapes it
neither weakness nor personal deviance, it is a collective distortion that has been impacting the psyche of humanity for a very long time
today we realise this (thanks to a change in frequency)
so de-conditioning everything that is not you and freeing yourself from the inner demon becomes possible
it is up to you to choose!
Sylviane: I will read this again and again. Thank you. Even if I don’t fully understand it – rationally – I am so thankful for your voice and your being and your presence in the world. You always point to some thing. Thank you!
thank you Ranju, there are things to be pointed to